Today’s Menu: Crow

I am man enough to admit when I’m wrong.  And I do apologize even though there are some people who claim they have never heard me apologize. (Tim is shaking his head right now, I promise you.) When I’m right about something, I will do whatever it takes to prove my position.  And when I’m wrong, I’ll use that same energy I use in my convictions to ask for forgiveness.  

Yesterday I inadvertently blamed someone for stealing my credit card.  EVEN THOUGH the credit card was stolen, and erroneous charges were placed in my name, it wasn’t the person I said it was.  

It’s worse.  It’s someone else we know.  This is a friend of Tim’s and our now guiltless friend.  It would seem that Friend B (the one we didn’t suspect) was telling tales about Friend A (the one I was hating so very much yesterday) so we would think it was Friend A.  The stories and allegations were very elaborate.  Ultimately…video surveillance of  the incidents in question tell a different truth.   It was definitely Friend B who took Tim’s credit card and began charging gas and food items from the BP gas station up the road.  

Since my last post, I have apologized to Friend A.  I was without sympathy and remorse while he laid out his defense to me.  He cried, and all I could think of was that he SHOULD be crying.  When, in fact, that was wrong.  I wonder, sometimes, why I even have friends since I don’t seem to understand the emotions that come along with them.  I’m a total dick when I’m angry.  I openly admit that.  I don’t want excuses…I want retribution.  I don’t want tears…I want solutions.  (I made that rhyme without even trying. Sounds like something in a country song.  Copyrighted!!!) 

I have apologized, hands were shaken and we promised to move on from this.  I asked Friend A to remember this occasion when – in his future – someone wrongs him, that he remembers to apologize and forgive just like I did last night.  Friend A is still not out of the clear since he was the one who brought Friend B into my house when I specifically said NO ONE was to come into my home while I was asleep (this was all well after midnight).  Yet he dismissed my request which resulted in someone fucking up my finances.  However, this may not have been Friend A’s fault.  

Again…for the record…when I love you, I love you hard.  When I despise you, I will pretty much want you to stop breathing.  It’s not often that I despise someone.  It’s also not often that I love someone.  It all balances out.  There will be those of you who read this that understand those words completely.  The crisis is over.  I do not want to go through this ever again.  Especially not with people I know.  

Note:  Friend B is not out of the woods.  We totally expected him to steal from us.  That’s why I made it very clear that I didn’t want him in my apartment at all.  It’s not shocking that he stole a credit card since we all know he’s slippery.  To think Friend A did it was shocking because I totally trust him with anything.  I had a very hard time understanding why he would do such a thing.  Everyone in our acquaintance said it was Friend A who stole the card.  Little did I know how this whole lie/manipulation/bring down another person scheme works.  Well…now I know how it works.  Last night was an emotional event.  Let’s not do that again anytime soon. 

This crow needs a little salt.

(no actual crows were harmed or destroyed in this post.)